Why Do I Do This?!


The concept album is a long-held tradition among musiciansThe concept album is a long-held tradition among musicians

The concept album is a long-held tradition among musicians

Bringing to you another video, this time in 4k. It’s been a hot minute since I’ve posted anything anywhere, but I’ve hardly been idle. There have been many and sundry little things taking my attention away, and in this video I chat about what’s been occupying my time. Like writing new songs, for example. I realize I just put out an album (that was long past its due date) and I’m supposed to only be focused on talking about that, but I’m not a conventional artist in any sense of the word. “Swallow” was conceived in 1995 as an album that would explore five different sides of a woman’s personality, with “Swallow” being the main character, and the one who has had to swallow her feelings and circumstances in order to survive. Clearly, that’s not the album I ended up making.

Experimenting with clickbaity titles is fun

Nor is am i me/am i not?, though I suppose in a way I came slightly closer.

As a point of curiosity, it seems that Tori Amos made that album, in a way, when she put out American Doll Posse, an album that put me off entirely for years due to the artwork and the fact that it seemed like Ms. Amos simply wanted an excuse to wear as many different wigs as she could to disguise the fact that she was losing her hair. It had finally become noticeable on To Venus and Back, which is why, I think, she had wigged artwork for Strange Little Girls, which I thought was a great album of covers. In fact, I only picked American Doll Posse up a couple of months ago after hearing Bouncing Off Clouds on The Graham Norton Show on YouTube. It’s a solid album. I don’t think it needed the concept. I think it was a ruse to hide her hair loss. It happens to women just as it does to men, and it’s horrible and embarrassing. She probably had to have a scalp reduction surgery that took years to heal, and that’s probably why there are so many fans that say she looks different now. Her eyebrows have literally moved. Please don’t hate on me for this: I adore her work.

Yikes, I’ve hung myself out to dry now. Um…moving right along.

All of the material from Swallow had been written between 2010 and 2012, and was pretty much complete by 2013. At that point, life circumstances became too pressing for me to move forward on the album and it had to wait. The release itself has been quiet, though I’ve gotten great feedback, and I’m pleased with its performance thus far. Having not written any music since 2012 and getting back into after all these years feels exhilarating.

Oh, and I chat with a sparrow for a moment. In the video, I zoom in close so you can see her clearly, but I realize that some folks might think I spliced that Very Mary Poppins moment in. Sadly, you’ll just have to take my word for it, because I imported the video directly from Quicktime to Premiere Rush without saving a copy, and once it’s rendered in Premiere Rush, it becomes uneditable.

I’ll think about saving a source copy next time. It’s not like I don’t have a terabyte of cloud storage or anything.

Two things of note here are that I’m now on Patreon, the address is (predictably) https://www.patreon.com/auryaun. I originally had Tiers there for both music supporters and tarot readings, but the way Patreon works made it too difficult. You can only offer either Tiers that are paid monthly, or “per creation”. I don’t see how I could satisfy my music fans in this way, plus I’m giving access to my Discord server, and how would that make sense? So I removed the tarot reading portion from my Patreon and only have monthly music fan subscriptions available that come with access to Discord, early access to new tracks, special swag, and more things as they happen.

For the tarot fans, I’ll be offering readings through a different avenue and most likely will use PayPal. In this video, I offer my first 150 Subscribers to my YouTube Channel to a free, single card reading, just for becoming a sub of my Channel and liking the video. Then, all you have to do is DM me your question. Super simple!

If it goes really well I might extend it to more subscribers. I’ll be setting up a page (probably here) for tarot readings. I know I can help a lot of people with my readings, as I’ve been doing them for so long. I’m excited to get going with these.

Why Do I Do This?!

Bringing to you another video, this time in 4k. It’s been a hot minute since I’ve posted anything anywhere, but I’ve hardly been idle. There have been many and sundry little things taking my attention away, and in this video I chat about what’s been occupying my time. Like writing new songs, for example. I realize I just put out an album (that was long past its due date) and I’m supposed to only be focused on talking about that, but I’m not a conventional artist in any sense of the word. “Swallow” was conceived in 1995 as an album that would explore five different sides of a woman’s personality, with “Swallow” being the main character, and the one who has had to swallow her feelings and circumstances in order to survive. Clearly, that’s not the album I ended up making.

Experimenting with clickbaity titles is fun

Nor is am i me/am i not?, though I suppose in a way I came slightly closer.

As a point of curiosity, it seems that Tori Amos made that album, in a way, when she put out American Doll Posse, an album that put me off entirely for years due to the artwork and the fact that it seemed like Ms. Amos simply wanted an excuse to wear as many different wigs as she could to disguise the fact that she was losing her hair. It had finally become noticeable on To Venus and Back, which is why, I think, she had wigged artwork for Strange Little Girls, which I thought was a great album of covers. In fact, I only picked American Doll Posse up a couple of months ago after hearing Bouncing Off Clouds on The Graham Norton Show on YouTube. It’s a solid album. I don’t think it needed the concept. I think it was a ruse to hide her hair loss. It happens to women just as it does to men, and it’s horrible and embarrassing. She probably had to have a scalp reduction surgery that took years to heal, and that’s probably why there are so many fans that say she looks different now. Her eyebrows have literally moved. Please don’t hate on me for this: I adore her work.

Yikes, I’ve hung myself out to dry now. Um…moving right along.

All of the material from Swallow had been written between 2010 and 2012, and was pretty much complete by 2013. At that point, life circumstances became too pressing for me to move forward on the album and it had to wait. The release itself has been quiet, though I’ve gotten great feedback, and I’m pleased with its performance thus far. Having not written any music since 2012 and getting back into after all these years feels exhilarating.

Oh, and I chat with a sparrow for a moment. In the video, I zoom in close so you can see her clearly, but I realize that some folks might think I spliced that Very Mary Poppins moment in. Sadly, you’ll just have to take my word for it, because I imported the video directly from Quicktime to Premiere Rush without saving a copy, and once it’s rendered in Premiere Rush, it becomes uneditable.

I’ll think about saving a source copy next time. It’s not like I don’t have a terabyte of cloud storage or anything.

Two things of note here are that I’m now on Patreon, the address is (predictably) https://www.patreon.com/auryaun. I originally had Tiers there for both music supporters and tarot readings, but the way Patreon works made it too difficult. You can only offer either Tiers that are paid monthly, or “per creation”. I don’t see how I could satisfy my music fans in this way, plus I’m giving access to my Discord server, and how would that make sense? So I removed the tarot reading portion from my Patreon and only have monthly music fan subscriptions available that come with access to Discord, early access to new tracks, special swag, and more things as they happen.

For the tarot fans, I’ll be offering readings through a different avenue and most likely will use PayPal. In this video, I offer my first 150 Subscribers to my YouTube Channel to a free, single card reading, just for becoming a sub of my Channel and liking the video. Then, all you have to do is DM me your question. Super simple!

If it goes really well I might extend it to more subscribers. I’ll be setting up a page (probably here) for tarot readings. I know I can help a lot of people with my readings, as I’ve been doing them for so long. I’m excited to get going with these.

Tarot Tuesday Week of July 21, 2020 | Codename: The Tower


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This week’s video carries a warning and time-sensitive info

This week’s reading takes us in a dark and unpleasant direction, but we can get through it if we stay strong and remember that we are a democracy. I’ve included the URLs to find your Senator and Representative in order to make call after call to direct them to assist YOU, since they are there to work for YOU and not the other way around.

Here are the URLs I give you in the video:
To find your Senator go to https://www.senate.gov/senators/index.htm
To find your Representative go to https://www.house.gov/representatives/find-your-representative

I also have started a Patreon at https://www.patreon.com/auryaun. I’m offering a few Tiers of readings there, but as I’ve mentioned in the video, I’m waiving fees for Single Card readings for the first 150 Subscribers to my YouTube Channel. All you need to do is go to my YouTube Channel, Like this video, and Subscribe to my Channel. Then DM me your question and I’ll DM you a reply of your reading If this takes off, I might extend this offer.

As always, I wish you peace and love.

Tarot Tuesday Week of July 21, 2020 | Codename: The Tower

This week’s video carries a warning and time-sensitive info

This week’s reading takes us in a dark and unpleasant direction, but we can get through it if we stay strong and remember that we are a democracy. I’ve included the URLs to find your Senator and Representative in order to make call after call to direct them to assist YOU, since they are there to work for YOU and not the other way around.

Here are the URLs I give you in the video:
To find your Senator go to https://www.senate.gov/senators/index.htm
To find your Representative go to https://www.house.gov/representatives/find-your-representative

I also have started a Patreon at https://www.patreon.com/auryaun. I’m offering a few Tiers of readings there, but as I’ve mentioned in the video, I’m waiving fees for Single Card readings for the first 150 Subscribers to my YouTube Channel. All you need to do is go to my YouTube Channel, Like this video, and Subscribe to my Channel. Then DM me your question and I’ll DM you a reply of your reading If this takes off, I might extend this offer.

As always, I wish you peace and love.

Tarot Tuesday for July 14, 2020


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This proved to be one of my best readings

This feels like one of the most powerful readings I’ve done yet, though I was frustrated by my technical issues. I did a factory reset on my computer today and realized that when I set it up, I stupidly created a partition that had sealed away a large portion of my usable data, when all I had meant to do was change the name of my machine. This is the danger of knowing only enough about such things as to cause oneself such problems—but I also know enough to fix them. Today, she is running sweetly with scads of available data.

Anyway…many hours later, I have once again another great video up and a nicely running machine. I’m going to do a test vloggy today just to make sure she’s going to play nicely with me. Don’t you make a liar out of me, Missy!

Tarot Tuesday for July 14, 2020

This feels like one of the most powerful readings I’ve done yet, though I was frustrated by my technical issues. I did a factory reset on my computer today and realized that when I set it up, I stupidly created a partition that had sealed away a large portion of my usable data, when all I had meant to do was change the name of my machine. This is the danger of knowing only enough about such things as to cause oneself such problems—but I also know enough to fix them. Today, she is running sweetly with scads of available data.

Anyway…many hours later, I have once again another great video up and a nicely running machine. I’m going to do a test vloggy today just to make sure she’s going to play nicely with me. Don’t you make a liar out of me, Missy!

Tarot Tuesday Week of June 23, 2020


I totally forgot to post this one, and it's really good too! Yikees, my workflow fell apart this weekI totally forgot to post this one, and it's really good too! Yikees, my workflow fell apart this week

I totally forgot to post this one, and it’s really good too! Yikees, my workflow fell apart this week

An utter lack of discipline followed my strange week of pain, apparently, and my workflow fell apart. Ah, well. Hopefully, you’re also subscribed to my YouTube Channel (and if you’re not, you should be).

This reading was focused and powerful, as well as really positive. I see good things coming our way—

Tarot Tuesday Week of June 23, 2020

I totally forgot to post this one, and it’s really good too! Yikees, my workflow fell apart this week

An utter lack of discipline followed my strange week of pain, apparently, and my workflow fell apart. Ah, well. Hopefully, you’re also subscribed to my YouTube Channel (and if you’re not, you should be).

This reading was focused and powerful, as well as really positive. I see good things coming our way—

Tarot Tuesday: Week of June 16, 2020

Hello Bandmates! I do a simple 3-card reading again this week for you from my beloved Thoth deck to get a sense of what the upcoming week might hold for us.

Hope you’re all staying safe and well! Bright blessings and much love to you all!

Tarot Tuesday: Week of May 5, 2020

A simple 3-card spread for you this week to highlight the main areas of focus.
Card 1: the main focus for this week
Card 2: the main issue or blockage this week
Card 3: the main gift for this week

This was a very beautiful reading for me to give, and very fulfilling, so please let me know if it helped you or what you thought of it in the comments.

Tarot Tuesday: Week of April 28, 2020

Join me as I lay out a Celtic Cross for us all to see what the upcoming week might hold. This is the first of what will be a regular feature on my YouTube Channel, so you’ll want to subscribe to keep abreast of my readings over there. Next week, I plan to do it live, and you won’t want to miss that one! I’ll also work in subscriber questions in the future.

Hope you’re all staying safe and well! Bright blessings and much love to you all!